1 00:01:05,009 --> 00:01:06,410 And... 2 00:02:22,210 --> 00:02:23,210 Surrender. 3 00:02:24,190 --> 00:02:25,190 More. 4 00:02:33,150 --> 00:02:34,930 Let's follow Jiro. 5 00:02:41,250 --> 00:02:42,990 More. More. 6 00:02:44,770 --> 00:02:45,770 Okay. 7 00:02:58,600 --> 00:03:02,220 Think this moment of the snapping back. 8 00:03:03,580 --> 00:03:05,160 Let's meet here. 9 00:03:05,540 --> 00:03:12,460 And then stay at that level as you're moving through the arms, trying to 10 00:03:12,540 --> 00:03:17,200 So almost like each finger could be having its own rotation. 11 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:24,080 I want you to describe a small circle inside the pelvis. 12 00:03:27,520 --> 00:03:29,560 And it can already echo into the spine. 13 00:03:29,900 --> 00:03:32,160 So small circle. 14 00:03:33,180 --> 00:03:40,060 And then it starts to amplify until it goes around the 15 00:03:40,060 --> 00:03:46,340 knees. And then from that place, I want the, I think the, just to get you out of 16 00:03:46,340 --> 00:03:49,620 that rough spot that the knee will break. 17 00:03:50,560 --> 00:03:51,560 Yeah, so. 18 00:03:53,690 --> 00:03:58,030 It's growing. Break. And then from here, I want you to push. 19 00:03:58,810 --> 00:04:03,530 Push. Beautiful. Yeah, I like it when the head's going out. 20 00:04:05,890 --> 00:04:06,890 Yeah. 21 00:04:07,250 --> 00:04:08,250 Push away. 22 00:04:09,050 --> 00:04:11,010 Good. And then from here. 23 00:04:20,950 --> 00:04:21,950 Okay, 24 00:04:22,430 --> 00:04:23,430 yeah. 25 00:04:23,560 --> 00:04:28,240 Let's push away and then like you slice. 26 00:05:36,039 --> 00:05:37,039 Thank you. 27 00:06:46,830 --> 00:06:49,330 Please probably take a break. Okay, one more. 28 00:06:50,330 --> 00:06:52,110 Are you okay for one more? Yeah, yeah, yeah. 29 00:06:54,250 --> 00:06:55,250 I can. 30 00:07:03,830 --> 00:07:04,830 Okay. 31 00:07:06,110 --> 00:07:08,270 Yeah. All right, that's a break, guys. 32 00:07:11,350 --> 00:07:14,790 Yeah, just more risk, yeah. Less of the decoration. 33 00:07:16,220 --> 00:07:22,460 Thank you. 34 00:10:28,880 --> 00:10:30,400 Mom? Mom, can you hear me? 35 00:10:32,560 --> 00:10:33,560 Hey. 36 00:10:34,320 --> 00:10:35,320 How are you? 37 00:10:35,520 --> 00:10:36,520 You doing all right? 38 00:10:37,600 --> 00:10:39,240 Sorry I missed your calls. 39 00:10:40,000 --> 00:10:41,000 I was in rehearsal. 40 00:10:43,200 --> 00:10:44,200 Everything all right? 41 00:10:47,840 --> 00:10:50,920 Have things gotten worse? 42 00:11:06,100 --> 00:11:09,900 Okay. Well, I'll try to sort something out here and... Charlotte. 43 00:11:10,600 --> 00:11:14,440 It might take a bit more time, but... Charlotte, I think it best if you come 44 00:11:14,440 --> 00:11:15,439 down right away. 45 00:11:15,440 --> 00:11:16,440 Well, I'll stay at Gran's? 46 00:11:17,680 --> 00:11:19,440 Um, yes. 47 00:11:20,460 --> 00:11:21,460 Okay. 48 00:11:22,220 --> 00:11:23,380 I'll call your sister. 49 00:11:24,620 --> 00:11:25,620 They'll give you a lift. 50 00:11:27,720 --> 00:11:28,720 I should get back in. 51 00:12:14,890 --> 00:12:15,890 We have to move on. 52 00:12:18,950 --> 00:12:20,050 Let's do the falling. 53 00:12:20,570 --> 00:12:21,570 The one we did before? 54 00:12:22,010 --> 00:12:23,010 Yeah. 55 00:12:42,530 --> 00:12:44,410 I think you were closer last time. 56 00:13:16,069 --> 00:13:19,430 Come on, we're going to go see Granny. 57 00:13:19,750 --> 00:13:20,750 You're here. 58 00:13:21,470 --> 00:13:22,530 Hi Mum. 59 00:13:23,090 --> 00:13:24,830 Hi Dad. Hi. 60 00:13:38,070 --> 00:13:39,070 Leaving rehearsal. 61 00:13:39,190 --> 00:13:40,190 It's all right, then. 62 00:13:41,870 --> 00:13:43,290 Joe's going to keep working with them. 63 00:13:43,690 --> 00:13:44,690 Over the weekend? 64 00:13:44,950 --> 00:13:46,370 Mm -hmm. I don't have a choice. 65 00:13:48,150 --> 00:13:49,150 OK. 66 00:13:49,610 --> 00:13:50,610 Hey, Marie. 67 00:13:50,890 --> 00:13:51,869 It's Rohan. 68 00:13:51,870 --> 00:13:52,870 We're back. 69 00:13:53,790 --> 00:13:54,870 We've got Billy here, too. 70 00:13:55,290 --> 00:13:56,350 Got Billy? Say hello. 71 00:14:02,270 --> 00:14:03,270 Let's get your jacket off. 72 00:14:03,550 --> 00:14:04,550 Come on, Bill. 73 00:14:04,810 --> 00:14:06,650 Let's get some of these horses. Go on. 74 00:14:11,090 --> 00:14:14,150 I think he's just been cooped up for a bit too long. Let's have a play over 75 00:14:14,150 --> 00:14:16,010 here. Nice to have life in the room. 76 00:14:17,690 --> 00:14:19,070 Ladies at Sessions Horses. 77 00:14:19,310 --> 00:14:20,310 Get your toys out. 78 00:14:20,750 --> 00:14:24,050 Why don't you just take him outside and let him run around a bit? Why, he's all 79 00:14:24,050 --> 00:14:26,150 right over here. We're just getting all his toys out. 80 00:14:27,950 --> 00:14:30,650 We saw horses, didn't we, Billy, last weekend? 81 00:14:31,650 --> 00:14:33,530 You should see the latest one. It's like this. 82 00:14:33,730 --> 00:14:34,730 All right. 83 00:14:34,970 --> 00:14:35,970 Hideous. 84 00:14:36,279 --> 00:14:39,420 head mask thing that he found in the party shop, you know, the one in Clapham 85 00:14:39,420 --> 00:14:40,420 Junction. 86 00:14:40,500 --> 00:14:42,080 Well, you'll be graced with that later. 87 00:14:43,180 --> 00:14:44,400 I look forward to it. 88 00:14:49,860 --> 00:14:50,860 Billy, 89 00:14:52,420 --> 00:14:53,420 you going to be all right there, yeah? 90 00:15:10,540 --> 00:15:12,460 You don't think she's in any pain, do you? 91 00:15:13,780 --> 00:15:15,000 No, darling. 92 00:15:17,180 --> 00:15:21,420 She's on so much morphine, she's probably dancing across the hill. 93 00:15:22,520 --> 00:15:23,520 That's good. 94 00:15:27,180 --> 00:15:29,320 It's just such a big change from last week. 95 00:15:33,820 --> 00:15:34,900 We're all here, Mum. 96 00:15:37,620 --> 00:15:38,880 I know she can work. 97 00:15:44,140 --> 00:15:45,140 We're all here. 98 00:15:48,780 --> 00:15:50,420 This is the new Charlotte. 99 00:15:55,520 --> 00:15:56,520 Sorry. 100 00:16:05,540 --> 00:16:06,540 What's that? 101 00:16:08,380 --> 00:16:09,380 Hi, Dad. 102 00:16:09,620 --> 00:16:10,620 Fine. 103 00:16:12,320 --> 00:16:13,460 We just got here. 104 00:16:20,939 --> 00:16:21,939 Sure, hang on. 105 00:16:22,960 --> 00:16:24,000 He just wants to say hi. 106 00:16:28,080 --> 00:16:29,080 Dad, you're on speaker. 107 00:16:30,220 --> 00:16:31,139 Hey, guys. 108 00:16:31,140 --> 00:16:32,140 Everyone okay? 109 00:16:32,340 --> 00:16:33,940 Dad, can you go someplace more quiet? 110 00:16:34,700 --> 00:16:35,880 Oh, yes. Sorry, sorry. 111 00:16:36,580 --> 00:16:37,580 One second. 112 00:16:39,080 --> 00:16:40,080 Is that better? 113 00:16:43,200 --> 00:16:44,139 Hi, Dad. 114 00:16:44,140 --> 00:16:45,140 How's it going, Alex? 115 00:16:49,600 --> 00:16:51,020 Yeah, yeah, good. Good, thanks. 116 00:16:51,260 --> 00:16:52,260 How's Mari doing? 117 00:16:53,560 --> 00:16:54,560 She's sleeping. 118 00:16:55,180 --> 00:16:56,540 Oh, good, good. That's good. 119 00:16:57,540 --> 00:16:58,540 Well, 120 00:16:59,980 --> 00:17:03,740 I'm over real soon for Charlie's show, so when you see Mari... She's right 121 00:17:03,820 --> 00:17:05,079 Alex. Oh, right. 122 00:17:05,960 --> 00:17:06,960 You're with her now? 123 00:17:07,180 --> 00:17:08,640 Well, where else would we be? 124 00:17:09,300 --> 00:17:10,299 Oh, yeah, of course. 125 00:17:10,300 --> 00:17:11,300 Sure, sure. 126 00:17:11,460 --> 00:17:12,460 Well, 127 00:17:13,060 --> 00:17:15,380 you hang in there, Mari. Dad, would you stop chanting? 128 00:17:16,490 --> 00:17:19,550 I don't think it's going to work out quite as conveniently as you were 129 00:17:19,670 --> 00:17:20,670 Alex. 130 00:17:21,589 --> 00:17:24,670 Dad. Hi, it's... You're off speaker. 131 00:17:27,829 --> 00:17:28,830 Yeah. 132 00:17:28,970 --> 00:17:29,869 Hold on. 133 00:17:29,870 --> 00:17:30,930 I'm just going to go with the maid. 134 00:17:32,670 --> 00:17:34,210 There's just still so much to do. 135 00:17:35,570 --> 00:17:39,570 I left Joe in charge, but they can't move on without me there. Yeah. 136 00:17:48,080 --> 00:17:49,700 It's just a lot to take in at the moment. 137 00:18:01,380 --> 00:18:08,000 Not just that. 138 00:18:10,180 --> 00:18:11,180 Nothing. 139 00:18:21,669 --> 00:18:25,690 Okay. You know, baby, look after your mom. 140 00:18:26,770 --> 00:18:27,770 Will do. 141 00:19:18,920 --> 00:19:21,280 I'm just going to get your mum comfortable before the shift changeover. 142 00:19:22,280 --> 00:19:25,040 Oh, yes, I'm just doing a bit of tidying. You should get home and have 143 00:19:25,040 --> 00:19:26,040 rest. 144 00:19:28,260 --> 00:19:31,780 Do you mind if I... Yes, of course. 145 00:19:47,860 --> 00:19:49,120 You've had a busy day, Mari. 146 00:19:51,160 --> 00:19:53,420 I bet you're looking forward to a bit of peace and quiet tonight. 147 00:19:57,440 --> 00:19:59,380 Was that that grandfather you offered to go, did he? 148 00:20:17,610 --> 00:20:19,670 I'll tell you what, it's absolutely freezing out there. 149 00:20:21,570 --> 00:20:22,570 Right now. 150 00:20:24,450 --> 00:20:25,630 Coming as quick as I can. 151 00:22:55,620 --> 00:22:56,800 God, shit. Sorry. 152 00:22:58,480 --> 00:23:03,320 I'm sorry, Charlotte. I was just putting Billy down and I didn't think anybody 153 00:23:03,320 --> 00:23:04,320 was in here. 154 00:23:09,560 --> 00:23:10,620 Can you shut the door? 155 00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:17,220 Sorry. I'm really sorry, Charlotte. 156 00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:19,320 It's fine. 157 00:23:29,300 --> 00:23:31,580 Honestly though, Margot, it's something that you should really consider. 158 00:23:33,360 --> 00:23:37,620 I mean, we've put it out almost completely, haven't we? 159 00:23:38,020 --> 00:23:43,380 Yeah. We're trying to let Billy go anywhere near this stuff, but it's 160 00:23:43,380 --> 00:23:44,380 difficult. 161 00:23:45,500 --> 00:23:46,860 Just start reading those labels. 162 00:23:47,540 --> 00:23:48,540 You'd be amazed. 163 00:23:48,860 --> 00:23:50,320 It's absolutely everywhere. 164 00:23:52,760 --> 00:23:54,020 Take baked beans. 165 00:23:55,020 --> 00:23:56,940 Baked beans are actual death in a can. 166 00:23:57,600 --> 00:23:58,700 What's wrong with baked beans? 167 00:23:58,980 --> 00:24:00,400 Well, you're basically eating a tin of sugar. 168 00:24:01,260 --> 00:24:03,320 You of all people should be more conscious of nutrition. 169 00:24:04,180 --> 00:24:05,180 My dad's fine. 170 00:24:06,460 --> 00:24:09,200 You might look healthy on the outside, but, for instance, you might have fat 171 00:24:09,200 --> 00:24:10,200 organs. 172 00:24:13,880 --> 00:24:15,860 And why do so many dancers seem to smoke? 173 00:24:16,580 --> 00:24:17,620 Shouldn't you try to stop? 174 00:24:42,320 --> 00:24:43,320 Do you mind? 175 00:24:47,300 --> 00:24:48,300 Thank you. 176 00:25:01,060 --> 00:25:02,060 You want a glass? 177 00:25:03,160 --> 00:25:04,260 No, not for me. 178 00:25:13,310 --> 00:25:14,970 Could you see if Granny's got any frozen peas? 179 00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:46,020 It feels weird eating her food without her. 180 00:25:51,760 --> 00:25:52,800 Are you going back tomorrow? 181 00:25:53,180 --> 00:25:54,180 I'm not sure. 182 00:25:55,140 --> 00:25:58,060 I suppose they can't really rehearse anything without you there. 183 00:25:58,280 --> 00:25:59,280 Not really. 184 00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:09,520 You know, I'm stepping in and out of these two roles, trying to hold 185 00:26:09,800 --> 00:26:10,840 all of this together. 186 00:26:15,659 --> 00:26:20,060 And, you know, I've never... I've never put myself out there like this before. 187 00:26:23,120 --> 00:26:24,720 Will there be other opportunities to witness? 188 00:26:24,960 --> 00:26:25,960 Not really. 189 00:26:32,260 --> 00:26:34,280 You know, everyone knows me just as a dancer. 190 00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:39,840 And I want... I need to make a mark with Violetta. 191 00:26:40,900 --> 00:26:44,180 And I know that I can. I mean, I just need to... 192 00:26:44,590 --> 00:26:47,370 I need the time, and I need to work. 193 00:26:49,330 --> 00:26:51,950 Well, sadly, we don't really have a choice with the timing of this, do we? 194 00:26:52,710 --> 00:26:54,390 Surely family has to come first. 195 00:26:57,430 --> 00:26:58,430 We still need to book. 196 00:26:59,030 --> 00:27:00,370 I thought you were coming with Mom and Dad. 197 00:27:01,270 --> 00:27:06,010 Well, that was the plan, but... Well, we're just finding it really hard to get 198 00:27:06,010 --> 00:27:07,010 babysitter. 199 00:27:07,850 --> 00:27:12,230 Really? They have so much on, and there seem to be endless events with the sixth 200 00:27:12,230 --> 00:27:13,230 formers, and... 201 00:27:13,600 --> 00:27:18,760 Oh, I don't know. It just doesn't really seem fair to leave Billy so often. 202 00:27:20,260 --> 00:27:21,260 Right. 203 00:28:10,320 --> 00:28:11,320 Thank you. 204 00:28:40,680 --> 00:28:41,680 You good? 205 00:28:43,080 --> 00:28:44,080 Not really. 206 00:28:45,940 --> 00:28:50,120 Lauren just had a... another miscarriage. 207 00:28:51,140 --> 00:28:54,540 What? Should have passed 12 weeks when your dad comes over. 208 00:28:56,740 --> 00:28:58,600 We were going to tell you all at your premiere. 209 00:29:02,220 --> 00:29:04,980 She wanted both your parents in the same room. 210 00:29:07,320 --> 00:29:08,380 Why are you telling me? 211 00:29:34,830 --> 00:29:37,610 Honey or jam, and there might be marmalade in the fridge. 212 00:29:38,130 --> 00:29:40,050 Thanks. This is for me? 213 00:29:40,270 --> 00:29:41,270 Yeah. 214 00:29:42,510 --> 00:29:44,570 Oh, I don't do butter. 215 00:29:45,730 --> 00:29:46,649 Don't you? 216 00:29:46,650 --> 00:29:47,870 No, I've never liked it. 217 00:29:48,590 --> 00:29:49,590 Oh. 218 00:29:52,150 --> 00:29:52,989 It's okay. 219 00:29:52,990 --> 00:29:53,990 I'll scrape it off. 220 00:29:55,510 --> 00:29:56,510 Sorry. 221 00:29:57,650 --> 00:29:58,650 It's fine, Mom. 222 00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:18,000 Did Gran do that? 223 00:30:19,280 --> 00:30:20,280 Probably. 224 00:30:23,040 --> 00:30:24,160 You ever go there? 225 00:30:25,720 --> 00:30:27,380 No, not for ages. 226 00:30:30,940 --> 00:30:33,640 Whenever I did go, I found it rather comforting. 227 00:30:37,960 --> 00:30:39,060 How permanent. 228 00:30:48,490 --> 00:30:49,490 Are you nearly ready? 229 00:30:50,950 --> 00:30:51,950 Yeah. 230 00:30:52,530 --> 00:30:54,330 Lois and I are going to cook tonight. What do you want? 231 00:30:55,050 --> 00:30:56,050 Oh, how lovely. 232 00:30:56,310 --> 00:30:57,570 Um, I'm not fussy. 233 00:31:00,830 --> 00:31:04,170 Lauren does a lovely casseroli stew -y type thing. 234 00:31:10,830 --> 00:31:13,590 I want to see how I get the gun. 235 00:31:14,030 --> 00:31:15,030 Okay. 236 00:31:34,169 --> 00:31:35,830 What should I do? 237 00:31:37,910 --> 00:31:39,630 Which one? 238 00:31:50,630 --> 00:31:52,870 It's a walking stick. 239 00:32:06,410 --> 00:32:07,410 No. 240 00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:13,480 You do the hokey -cokey and you turn 241 00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:17,140 around. That's what it's all... 242 00:33:36,360 --> 00:33:37,620 Would it be nice to sit at the table? 243 00:33:40,160 --> 00:33:41,160 We could do. 244 00:33:41,620 --> 00:33:42,620 Well, I think we should. 245 00:33:51,780 --> 00:33:52,780 Charlotte, please don't sit there. 246 00:33:54,520 --> 00:33:55,520 We've never sat there before. 247 00:34:46,320 --> 00:34:47,940 Is it all right? It's delicious. 248 00:34:48,320 --> 00:34:49,320 It's really good, Lott. 249 00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:54,540 I really appreciate it. Thank you. 250 00:34:56,420 --> 00:34:57,420 Yeah, thanks. 251 00:35:08,080 --> 00:35:10,820 You know I found a pack of cigarettes hidden upstairs in the bathroom? 252 00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:12,960 Granny smokes. 253 00:35:14,580 --> 00:35:16,340 Only in the bathroom, it would seem. 254 00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:18,400 I'm not quite sure what that's about. 255 00:35:19,520 --> 00:35:21,880 I would love to share a cigarette with her right now. 256 00:35:24,700 --> 00:35:27,760 You know she's using a bag of wool as an ashtray? 257 00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:30,600 That's bold. 258 00:35:30,980 --> 00:35:32,660 I have spoken to her about that. 259 00:35:33,460 --> 00:35:36,180 I think she was knitting, like, leg or arm warmer things. 260 00:35:39,980 --> 00:35:40,980 Who was? 261 00:35:42,900 --> 00:35:43,900 Who are you? 262 00:35:44,370 --> 00:35:45,430 Really? Mm -hmm. 263 00:35:45,750 --> 00:35:46,750 For what? 264 00:35:47,890 --> 00:35:48,890 So sweet. 265 00:35:49,910 --> 00:35:52,230 I thought maybe they were for her wrist when she paints. 266 00:35:52,950 --> 00:35:54,950 It's been a long time since she's painted, Charlotte. 267 00:35:57,690 --> 00:35:58,690 Yeah. 268 00:35:59,090 --> 00:36:00,090 Of course. 269 00:36:03,870 --> 00:36:05,510 When was the last time you came down here? 270 00:36:07,470 --> 00:36:08,470 A while ago. 271 00:36:11,230 --> 00:36:12,910 I've been talking to her on the phone, though. 272 00:36:13,580 --> 00:36:15,340 She's been a really tricky couple months. 273 00:36:17,220 --> 00:36:21,220 When you brought her to London for her birthday, wasn't that the last time we 274 00:36:21,220 --> 00:36:22,220 were all together? 275 00:36:22,860 --> 00:36:27,260 We came down last weekend and a few weeks ago when she started to get ill. 276 00:36:30,540 --> 00:36:31,540 What? 277 00:36:33,780 --> 00:36:36,060 Granny understands. She knows how busy you've been. 278 00:36:50,480 --> 00:36:51,680 Is there not enough chilli in it, Mum? 279 00:36:55,060 --> 00:36:56,060 It's lovely. 280 00:36:56,420 --> 00:36:57,780 I just don't have any appetite. 281 00:37:00,220 --> 00:37:04,980 I'm going to pop this into one of Mum's many Tupperwares and head for bed. 282 00:37:07,360 --> 00:37:08,720 I leave you lot to it. 283 00:37:13,940 --> 00:37:15,020 Don't worry, I'll do that. 284 00:37:35,840 --> 00:37:39,480 I need... I need a blanket. 285 00:37:40,840 --> 00:37:43,600 Yeah, I was just wondering if you knew where Gran kept them. 286 00:37:44,560 --> 00:37:45,940 Yeah, they're in here. 287 00:37:55,280 --> 00:37:58,260 One or two? 288 00:37:58,860 --> 00:37:59,860 One. 289 00:38:05,670 --> 00:38:06,670 What have you got in here? 290 00:38:09,230 --> 00:38:10,370 No that's not really nice. 291 00:38:32,590 --> 00:38:33,590 What are these? 292 00:38:40,490 --> 00:38:41,490 At the funeral. 293 00:38:42,750 --> 00:38:43,770 Why are there photos? 294 00:38:45,430 --> 00:38:46,710 Cousin Duncan, probably. 295 00:38:47,390 --> 00:38:49,230 He always had a camera around his neck. 296 00:38:57,230 --> 00:38:58,390 So many flowers. 297 00:38:59,370 --> 00:39:01,270 Well, there were so many people there. 298 00:39:02,370 --> 00:39:03,870 He was much loved. 299 00:39:05,790 --> 00:39:08,150 Good and kind and... 300 00:39:08,880 --> 00:39:09,980 Funny and brilliant. 301 00:39:13,720 --> 00:39:15,060 You would have loved him. 302 00:39:18,820 --> 00:39:21,020 He would have been so proud of you. 303 00:39:31,160 --> 00:39:33,000 Do you know what I remember about that day? 304 00:39:35,780 --> 00:39:36,780 The noise. 305 00:39:40,110 --> 00:39:46,490 so much noise there were people talking and drinking tea 306 00:39:46,490 --> 00:39:53,490 and I escaped and I came back here and I 307 00:39:53,490 --> 00:39:58,870 went upstairs and I locked myself into the bathroom and I climbed into an empty 308 00:39:58,870 --> 00:40:03,970 bath and I just lay there and 309 00:40:03,970 --> 00:40:08,070 I missed him 310 00:40:14,890 --> 00:40:15,890 you do silly things. 311 00:40:43,880 --> 00:40:45,820 Will you turn Mum's electric blanket on? 312 00:42:21,840 --> 00:42:27,160 a seaside village just north of Torquay. I spoke with James Lewis, a local who 313 00:42:27,160 --> 00:42:31,960 describes his first -hand experiences that became the source of his dark 314 00:42:55,530 --> 00:42:57,070 joins us from Sherbourne Hall. 315 00:42:57,310 --> 00:43:02,370 Mari, your work certainly stands out, full of colour and energy. 316 00:43:02,710 --> 00:43:08,230 Tell us more on your process and how you begin when you know to stop. 317 00:43:08,650 --> 00:43:13,290 I just throw everything at it. I'm throwing everything at it, layer upon 318 00:43:13,490 --> 00:43:15,050 and then I scrape it back. 319 00:43:15,410 --> 00:43:21,850 So I'm looking for... I'm looking for something to reveal itself, you know, 320 00:43:21,850 --> 00:43:22,850 happy accident. 321 00:43:23,630 --> 00:43:24,830 Something of interest. 322 00:43:25,680 --> 00:43:27,920 Something will reveal itself eventually. 323 00:43:28,480 --> 00:43:34,660 And for the benefit of people and... 324 00:43:34,660 --> 00:43:37,560 Marie, who's this by your side? 325 00:43:38,840 --> 00:43:43,860 Charlotte. How old are you then? 326 00:43:44,620 --> 00:43:45,960 Five and three quarters. 327 00:43:46,540 --> 00:43:48,220 Do you like to paint like your grandmother? 328 00:43:49,020 --> 00:43:50,340 You're nodding yes. 329 00:43:50,680 --> 00:43:54,580 But Marie, tell us more on what inspires you. 330 00:43:55,260 --> 00:44:02,160 forms these unusual pieces ideas they just pop up i mean it could be a thing 331 00:44:02,160 --> 00:44:08,880 it could be maybe a color or even a mood i don't choose they just 332 00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:13,920 sort of appear in front of me and then they stick around until i've got it down 333 00:44:13,920 --> 00:44:18,740 to be honest i'm never really sure why why certain things come my way when they 334 00:44:18,740 --> 00:44:23,520 do by the time i'm done with the painting to me it does all usually make 335 00:48:17,200 --> 00:48:18,520 Why don't you share with me tonight? 336 00:48:20,180 --> 00:48:21,180 Maybe. 337 00:48:22,760 --> 00:48:24,480 I couldn't sleep last night. 338 00:48:25,500 --> 00:48:26,500 Why? 339 00:48:27,180 --> 00:48:28,180 I don't know. 340 00:48:29,860 --> 00:48:32,060 I started going through some of Gran's stuff. 341 00:48:34,820 --> 00:48:41,400 I found this old recording of an interview of her and I at some 342 00:48:41,400 --> 00:48:42,400 art fair. 343 00:48:55,210 --> 00:48:56,210 I love coming down here. 344 00:48:58,270 --> 00:48:58,990 I found 345 00:48:58,990 --> 00:49:05,830 all my 346 00:49:05,830 --> 00:49:06,830 letters. 347 00:49:07,230 --> 00:49:12,730 She's literally kept every single one from when I lived with Dad and the time 348 00:49:12,730 --> 00:49:13,730 New York. 349 00:49:15,530 --> 00:49:16,530 I'm embarrassed. 350 00:49:17,450 --> 00:49:22,850 I never asked her about her own work or told her how good she was. 351 00:49:27,470 --> 00:49:29,190 with my silly teenage drama. 352 00:49:29,990 --> 00:49:32,770 Thank God we did miss out on the teenage Charlotte years. 353 00:49:33,850 --> 00:49:35,230 What's she talking about? 354 00:49:37,530 --> 00:49:39,690 I knew everything that was going on in her life. 355 00:49:41,090 --> 00:49:42,090 Every exam. 356 00:49:43,270 --> 00:49:44,450 Every recital. 357 00:49:45,770 --> 00:49:47,470 Even what boyfriend she had. 358 00:49:48,550 --> 00:49:49,730 Do you have a boyfriend? 359 00:49:52,270 --> 00:49:53,310 I'm having sex. 360 00:49:54,870 --> 00:49:55,870 Good. 361 00:49:58,890 --> 00:49:59,890 Anything serious? 362 00:50:02,510 --> 00:50:04,070 No, he's a dancer in the company. 363 00:50:05,410 --> 00:50:08,730 He's maybe 20, 25. 364 00:50:23,930 --> 00:50:25,430 Can we do some of you a stretch? 365 00:50:26,990 --> 00:50:28,550 I think we all need to move a bit. 366 00:50:30,210 --> 00:50:31,210 Sure. 367 00:50:32,650 --> 00:50:33,650 Lauren? 368 00:50:33,790 --> 00:50:34,790 I'm good. 369 00:50:36,570 --> 00:50:38,030 We'll make you feel better. No, I'm fine. 370 00:51:01,390 --> 00:51:02,390 All right, then start. 371 00:51:10,250 --> 00:51:13,510 Let's start by making some heat. 372 00:51:17,210 --> 00:51:18,490 Wash your hands. 373 00:51:19,910 --> 00:51:20,910 Wash yourself. 374 00:51:22,530 --> 00:51:23,690 Make up your skin. 375 00:51:28,870 --> 00:51:29,870 Get everywhere. 376 00:51:30,600 --> 00:51:31,600 I knew. 377 00:51:33,000 --> 00:51:34,000 All the way. 378 00:51:37,900 --> 00:51:38,900 Good. 379 00:51:42,580 --> 00:51:45,700 Follow me. 380 00:51:59,560 --> 00:52:02,780 Reach higher and like you're peeling away a page. 381 00:52:10,340 --> 00:52:11,980 Look down to the floor. 382 00:52:16,040 --> 00:52:17,660 Look up to the sky. 383 00:52:19,020 --> 00:52:21,440 And get wider to come up. 384 00:52:25,480 --> 00:52:27,780 And let's start to bring everything in. 385 00:52:29,840 --> 00:52:30,840 Squeeze yourself. 386 00:52:31,340 --> 00:52:34,940 Bring everything more narrow, closer to the inside. 387 00:52:35,320 --> 00:52:38,880 Good. Start to tremble. Squeeze so much you tremble. 388 00:52:39,400 --> 00:52:40,400 Hold it in. 389 00:52:41,300 --> 00:52:42,300 Hold on. 390 00:52:42,660 --> 00:52:43,660 Don't let go. 391 00:52:45,020 --> 00:52:46,020 More. 392 00:52:46,640 --> 00:52:47,640 There we go. 393 00:52:48,800 --> 00:52:50,300 Good. And let's run. 394 00:52:52,420 --> 00:52:53,420 Downhill. 395 00:52:54,280 --> 00:52:57,320 Move your pelvis more. 396 00:53:06,710 --> 00:53:09,230 Good. Start to go a bit slow motion. 397 00:53:14,150 --> 00:53:15,150 Good. 398 00:53:16,810 --> 00:53:21,430 A bit slower. 399 00:53:25,190 --> 00:53:26,630 And twist more. 400 00:53:27,070 --> 00:53:28,770 Start to look behind you. 401 00:53:31,690 --> 00:53:32,690 Look at me. 402 00:53:32,910 --> 00:53:33,950 Get softer. 403 00:53:34,230 --> 00:53:35,230 Go more. 404 00:53:35,440 --> 00:53:36,440 Good. 405 00:53:36,640 --> 00:53:37,640 You can do it. 406 00:53:37,980 --> 00:53:39,420 Good. And other side. 407 00:53:45,060 --> 00:53:46,620 Good. Get softer. 408 00:53:47,160 --> 00:53:48,160 Twist more. 409 00:53:55,160 --> 00:53:56,580 And let's come back. 410 00:53:57,040 --> 00:53:58,080 Face this way. 411 00:53:59,700 --> 00:54:00,980 Look down at your feet. 412 00:54:02,200 --> 00:54:05,280 Good. The weight of your head start to take you down. 413 00:54:06,760 --> 00:54:07,760 Breathe in. 414 00:54:08,280 --> 00:54:09,280 Breathe out. 415 00:54:12,560 --> 00:54:15,700 Give in to the weight. 416 00:54:16,100 --> 00:54:17,960 Oh, that's how I get to my back. 417 00:54:20,260 --> 00:54:21,260 Oh, God. 418 00:54:21,980 --> 00:54:23,640 Give in to the weight more. 419 00:55:02,300 --> 00:55:03,300 Oh, God. 420 00:55:05,500 --> 00:55:09,660 Billy's been harassing some kind of llama, you see. 421 00:55:11,040 --> 00:55:12,880 I don't know if it's a llama or an alpaca. 422 00:55:13,460 --> 00:55:15,000 Oh, Billy. 423 00:55:15,260 --> 00:55:16,360 I think I'm being sent here with it. 424 00:55:20,600 --> 00:55:24,500 Why don't... Yes, I've got it. 425 00:55:26,980 --> 00:55:30,900 Don't let... Don't let it spit on him. 426 00:55:46,990 --> 00:55:49,070 I promised mum I'd finish it. What is that? 427 00:55:50,310 --> 00:55:51,630 Does that want a grand skirt? 428 00:55:52,010 --> 00:55:54,890 Yeah. The NHS needs more cushions apparently. 429 00:55:55,290 --> 00:55:57,390 You know how your grandmother loved to recycle. 430 00:55:59,910 --> 00:56:00,950 This is for here? 431 00:56:01,890 --> 00:56:02,890 Yes. 432 00:56:30,620 --> 00:56:31,620 You're rushing. 433 00:56:33,100 --> 00:56:34,920 You just have to be a bit more patient with it. 434 00:56:52,080 --> 00:56:54,080 How do you have the patience for this kind of stuff? 435 00:56:55,780 --> 00:56:56,800 Just find it calming. 436 00:56:59,720 --> 00:57:00,720 Come on, really? 437 00:57:01,280 --> 00:57:02,980 Well, I hardly see you together. 438 00:57:03,920 --> 00:57:06,120 Carry on doing what you're doing and don't pose. 439 00:57:06,860 --> 00:57:07,860 Is Granny in it? 440 00:57:08,600 --> 00:57:10,320 Yes. Could you frame her out? 441 00:57:11,460 --> 00:57:12,460 She's still here. 442 00:57:12,560 --> 00:57:15,660 I don't want to remember her like this. So if you're going to take it, could you 443 00:57:15,660 --> 00:57:17,820 just at least crop her out? 444 00:57:18,040 --> 00:57:19,320 It doesn't look like her. 445 00:57:21,520 --> 00:57:22,520 Forget it at the moment. 446 00:57:42,190 --> 00:57:43,370 Aren't you going to finish it? 447 00:57:44,490 --> 00:57:45,710 No, you can if you want. 448 00:57:45,950 --> 00:57:47,810 Well, no, because Mum asked you to. 449 00:57:49,970 --> 00:57:51,030 You're better at it anyway. 450 00:57:52,270 --> 00:57:54,730 You've only been at it for about five minutes. 451 00:57:55,490 --> 00:57:56,490 No. 452 00:57:57,450 --> 00:57:58,490 Charlotte, what's wrong with you? 453 00:58:00,950 --> 00:58:01,950 I'm tired. 454 00:59:25,580 --> 00:59:26,580 It's Charlotte. 455 00:59:30,520 --> 00:59:31,920 I'm on my gran's landline. 456 00:59:35,380 --> 00:59:36,380 I'm fine. 457 00:59:37,540 --> 00:59:38,620 I'm actually fine. 458 00:59:45,440 --> 00:59:48,000 We're all waiting around, sitting with her. 459 00:59:50,880 --> 00:59:53,740 It kind of feels like some weird Christmas. 460 01:00:00,240 --> 01:00:01,198 I know. 461 01:00:01,200 --> 01:00:02,240 Thank you. 462 01:00:04,480 --> 01:00:05,680 How are you? 463 01:00:07,820 --> 01:00:09,960 I'm good. 464 01:00:13,720 --> 01:00:14,720 Look. 465 01:00:17,060 --> 01:00:23,480 I... I need to... What? 466 01:00:25,640 --> 01:00:28,960 I... I'm sure I said... 467 01:00:31,020 --> 01:00:33,760 I specifically told Joe not to work on that section. 468 01:00:39,480 --> 01:00:40,480 No. 469 01:00:42,040 --> 01:00:46,100 The whole point is for you to explore, offer up, and then I'll take what I can 470 01:00:46,100 --> 01:00:47,100 from it. 471 01:00:48,100 --> 01:00:50,380 I'm not interested in any completed phrases. 472 01:00:53,460 --> 01:00:54,900 Well, that doesn't help at all. 473 01:00:57,520 --> 01:00:58,640 Why didn't you call me? 474 01:01:03,950 --> 01:01:04,950 No, it's not interrupting. 475 01:01:07,050 --> 01:01:08,190 You can call me anytime. 476 01:01:12,370 --> 01:01:13,370 Yes, it's appropriate. 477 01:01:17,130 --> 01:01:21,170 You're so frustrating. I let go for a few hours and you're derailing it. 478 01:01:29,950 --> 01:01:31,950 One, two, I don't know, maybe three days? 479 01:01:34,400 --> 01:01:35,400 Okay. 480 01:01:36,080 --> 01:01:37,080 It's my fault. 481 01:01:43,140 --> 01:01:44,140 Okay. 482 01:01:44,400 --> 01:01:45,400 Yeah. 483 01:01:46,680 --> 01:01:47,680 Thanks. 484 01:01:51,400 --> 01:01:52,400 Bye. 485 01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:13,040 Where's his top? 486 01:04:13,380 --> 01:04:14,400 I said you had it. 487 01:04:15,900 --> 01:04:18,380 Why wouldn't I have it? You're the one getting him ready for bed. 488 01:04:18,860 --> 01:04:19,860 I don't know. 489 01:04:20,420 --> 01:04:21,420 Billy? 490 01:04:22,520 --> 01:04:23,720 Where's your pajama top, mate? 491 01:04:24,260 --> 01:04:25,260 Where's your top, love? 492 01:04:28,680 --> 01:04:29,700 Billy, calm, please. 493 01:04:32,440 --> 01:04:33,440 Bill? 494 01:04:36,960 --> 01:04:37,960 Billy. 495 01:04:38,740 --> 01:04:39,740 Where's your shirt? 496 01:04:41,390 --> 01:04:42,430 Did you hide your shirt? 497 01:04:44,910 --> 01:04:45,910 That's strange. 498 01:04:46,150 --> 01:04:48,010 Your horse told me that you did. 499 01:04:49,030 --> 01:04:52,410 Because horses are terrible liars. 500 01:04:54,010 --> 01:04:55,610 I know. It's very annoying. 501 01:04:56,030 --> 01:04:57,510 But movement never lies. 502 01:05:01,790 --> 01:05:02,790 Come here. 503 01:05:13,320 --> 01:05:14,320 Oh, I got it. 504 01:05:57,260 --> 01:06:01,200 There's an album. I know it when I see it. It's got a grey cover. 505 01:06:03,020 --> 01:06:07,800 Oh, and there's that... There's that cello piece that she loves. 506 01:06:08,320 --> 01:06:09,320 What is it? 507 01:06:10,020 --> 01:06:11,740 Elgar. Elgar. Or something. 508 01:06:12,720 --> 01:06:13,820 Let's look in the morning. 509 01:06:14,820 --> 01:06:16,820 No. I want to find it now. 510 01:06:17,040 --> 01:06:18,040 It's late, Mum. 511 01:06:20,960 --> 01:06:22,500 Actually, you two could help. 512 01:06:24,180 --> 01:06:27,020 There's one less thing to think about when it comes to the funeral 513 01:06:27,600 --> 01:06:28,620 She's not dead yet. 514 01:06:29,820 --> 01:06:30,820 She will be soon. 515 01:06:33,080 --> 01:06:37,600 Charlotte, it would be lovely that you would do one of your dances at the 516 01:06:37,600 --> 01:06:38,620 beginning of the service. 517 01:06:40,040 --> 01:06:41,460 I know that she would love that. 518 01:06:41,720 --> 01:06:43,520 Oh, yes, yes, I could do a little song. 519 01:06:43,840 --> 01:06:46,820 Lauren, you can do a reading. I just don't think this is the right time to 520 01:06:46,820 --> 01:06:49,820 about this. Think of the preparation we had for your wedding. 521 01:06:50,410 --> 01:06:55,190 The music and the flowers and the church and the order of bloody service. 522 01:06:55,990 --> 01:06:59,450 But with a funeral, you have what it seems like, I don't know, five minutes, 523 01:06:59,450 --> 01:07:01,490 absolutely none of you want to talk about it. 524 01:07:01,890 --> 01:07:02,930 A wedding is different. 525 01:07:03,190 --> 01:07:04,710 Oh, really? It feels the same to me. Mum. 526 01:07:05,450 --> 01:07:06,450 What? 527 01:07:06,730 --> 01:07:07,970 Stay out of this, please. 528 01:07:08,370 --> 01:07:09,370 Why? 529 01:07:09,550 --> 01:07:10,550 Because. 530 01:07:11,350 --> 01:07:13,890 We're talking about Gran's funeral. That concerns me as well, doesn't it? 531 01:07:16,270 --> 01:07:17,390 Mum, I'm right here. 532 01:07:18,330 --> 01:07:19,330 I know. 533 01:07:21,100 --> 01:07:22,100 We're all very grateful. 534 01:07:27,140 --> 01:07:28,140 Mum. 535 01:07:30,460 --> 01:07:31,460 Mum. 536 01:07:33,740 --> 01:07:34,800 Mum, please. 537 01:07:59,460 --> 01:08:00,460 Hey. 538 01:08:01,460 --> 01:08:02,460 You all right? 539 01:08:04,220 --> 01:08:05,980 It's all just really shit timing. 540 01:08:07,360 --> 01:08:08,360 Yeah. 541 01:08:09,820 --> 01:08:10,820 Yeah, it is. 542 01:08:14,940 --> 01:08:16,160 You know, don't you? 543 01:08:19,740 --> 01:08:20,740 Do you? 544 01:08:21,399 --> 01:08:24,040 Well, I figured, yeah. 545 01:08:25,939 --> 01:08:28,540 In your situation, it's not ideal. 546 01:08:29,870 --> 01:08:33,189 I mean, yeah, it's really bloody difficult, and you're going to have to 547 01:08:33,189 --> 01:08:37,670 these sacrifices, but it's the most amazing thing. 548 01:08:39,330 --> 01:08:40,330 It is. 549 01:08:40,350 --> 01:08:41,609 It's totally worth it. 550 01:08:42,630 --> 01:08:47,069 It's worth the struggle if it's something that you really want. 551 01:08:48,189 --> 01:08:51,410 You sit down, you're ready for it. 552 01:08:53,630 --> 01:08:58,250 And you just look at it as this really beautiful sidestep. 553 01:08:59,920 --> 01:09:02,700 A side step for you and a side step for me are not the same thing. 554 01:09:03,720 --> 01:09:05,040 I'd have to change everything. 555 01:09:05,660 --> 01:09:06,960 Yeah, you probably will. 556 01:09:09,120 --> 01:09:10,840 But isn't that what we're always doing anyway? 557 01:09:12,040 --> 01:09:16,300 Our circumstances, our ideas, our bodies. 558 01:09:17,100 --> 01:09:18,700 It's always changing. 559 01:09:19,540 --> 01:09:20,920 But that's what I'm good at. 560 01:09:21,819 --> 01:09:23,180 That's what I do every day. 561 01:09:26,100 --> 01:09:29,180 This... This feels like slowing down. 562 01:09:30,940 --> 01:09:31,940 Stopping. 563 01:09:32,920 --> 01:09:36,920 With no one there to help me, help me start over. 564 01:09:38,859 --> 01:09:39,859 Oh, 565 01:09:40,260 --> 01:09:41,520 Mrs. Jolly. 566 01:09:43,960 --> 01:09:47,260 I know we're all feeling crap this weekend, but there really is something a 567 01:09:47,260 --> 01:09:48,260 bigger than us going on. 568 01:09:48,620 --> 01:09:51,520 Please stop trying to be this mother all the time. No, I'm not trying to be a 569 01:09:51,520 --> 01:09:53,979 martyr. I'm just trying to keep everything together for Mum. 570 01:09:54,320 --> 01:09:56,760 And I would be amazed if you stepped up. 571 01:09:58,060 --> 01:10:00,780 I'd be amazed if you'd let me. I think you're just going off on him, aren't 572 01:10:01,000 --> 01:10:02,920 What are you talking about? I'm not going anywhere. 573 01:10:03,480 --> 01:10:04,820 You don't keep your word in. 574 01:10:05,500 --> 01:10:06,500 Please stop. 575 01:10:07,500 --> 01:10:09,600 I can't deal with you on top of everything else. 576 01:10:09,960 --> 01:10:11,860 When would be a good time for Granny to die? 577 01:10:12,060 --> 01:10:15,740 Oh, fuck off. Just stop, okay? Just stop now, all right? I think we're all a bit 578 01:10:15,740 --> 01:10:16,740 tired. Let's go to bed. 579 01:10:16,880 --> 01:10:18,800 You know what? You might as well have stayed in London. 580 01:10:19,380 --> 01:10:23,960 You might as well have. And you know what? You would do well to remember that 581 01:10:23,960 --> 01:10:26,980 it's us here for you at the end of the day and not your fucking job. 582 01:10:27,680 --> 01:10:28,680 Good job. 583 01:10:28,960 --> 01:10:30,240 This is my life. 584 01:10:33,340 --> 01:10:35,360 And since when have you been here for me? 585 01:10:36,380 --> 01:10:37,380 Really? 586 01:10:39,080 --> 01:10:40,240 You know I'm pregnant. 587 01:10:41,140 --> 01:10:42,580 You've not said anything. 588 01:10:49,760 --> 01:10:51,900 Well, we weren't sure, though. 589 01:11:00,300 --> 01:11:01,300 I'm sorry. 590 01:11:02,640 --> 01:11:05,160 That it's me that's pregnant and not you. 591 01:11:06,540 --> 01:11:07,720 Really, I am. 592 01:11:08,460 --> 01:11:09,460 You told her. 593 01:11:10,700 --> 01:11:14,260 Did you tell her? I just thought that. 594 01:11:14,660 --> 01:11:16,760 I think that if we just thought... What did you think, Rohan? 595 01:11:22,700 --> 01:11:24,380 You are going to have this baby, aren't you? 596 01:11:24,620 --> 01:11:28,300 You can't help me. Surely, surely you're going to have it. 597 01:11:28,900 --> 01:11:29,900 Right? 598 01:11:30,640 --> 01:11:31,640 I don't know. 599 01:11:34,180 --> 01:11:39,000 Or do you think you're too good just to be just a mum? 600 01:11:39,220 --> 01:11:40,220 That's it. 601 01:11:41,340 --> 01:11:42,680 Because we are the same, Charlotte. 602 01:11:44,000 --> 01:11:49,760 And if you think that you are going to be a big loss to the world because you 603 01:11:49,760 --> 01:11:55,340 just disappear off and have a baby, then... 604 01:11:57,640 --> 01:12:02,020 then you're making a big mistake because you are really, really just not that 605 01:12:02,020 --> 01:12:03,020 special. 606 01:14:14,470 --> 01:14:15,470 Are you okay? 607 01:15:02,250 --> 01:15:04,870 Hi. No, no, no, that's fine. No, I'm not doing anything. 608 01:15:11,850 --> 01:15:15,950 You really... Fucker. 609 01:15:16,330 --> 01:15:21,150 You... Alright, I think we're gonna, um... This is what you're gonna do. 610 01:15:22,050 --> 01:15:23,190 You're gonna put that down. 611 01:15:23,410 --> 01:15:24,410 We'll do it tomorrow. 612 01:15:25,390 --> 01:15:29,810 And we'll just, uh... Yep. 613 01:15:32,620 --> 01:15:33,620 Shake your cheek. Bye. 614 01:21:56,960 --> 01:21:59,080 Hello? No, no, no, it's fine. 615 01:22:01,960 --> 01:22:02,960 I understand. 616 01:22:02,980 --> 01:22:04,720 Yes. I'm coming. 617 01:22:05,900 --> 01:22:06,900 Thank you so much. 618 01:23:47,530 --> 01:23:48,530 Mom. 619 01:25:20,390 --> 01:25:21,690 I'm going to go and tell you now.